Brokenness. Its been the longest 42 hours I have experienced in awhile. It feels like years of heartache, emotion and pain all came spilling out within this short period of time. There is nothing like the scream of pain, holding someone you care about back from hurting themselves, and then watching them being taken away … Continue reading October 2, 2021
You know he never loved you… When he doesn’t celebrate your achievements. When he’s mad, he calls you names. When you set boundaries in order to create physical and emotional balance, he lashes out and calls you controlling. When he doesn’t keep his word, or doesn’t follow through on what he says he’s going to … Continue reading How You Know He Never Loved you
Serenity. It’s been a rough last couple months. From moving out of the ex-boyfriends house, to helping my friend get back on his feet while trying to remain stable myself. To the work load slowly escalating as we get into flu season. To having a kidney infection and being rushed to the ER. As you … Continue reading September 24, 2021
What does it feel like to be someone's girlfriend? I wonder to myself for the hundredth time, waking up beside him, feeling cold because he stole all the covers. I wonder what it feels like to have someone say I love you, and it mean the same as you feel when they say it. What … Continue reading September 21, 2021
This isn’t the first time I’ve woken up crying. Nor is this the last time. Consistently once a night, I’ll have a flash back of something from my past mixed with all the fears and frustrations I felt at the time of the event. Some times my subconscious is able to pull myself out of … Continue reading September 19, 2021
The person I’m in love with…the person I fuck…the person I want to spend the rest of my life with. Three different people. I grew up in a very traditional christian household. I was taught that one man, one wife made up the perfect marriage. That you could only be in-love with one person, and … Continue reading June 23, 2021
You know when you were a kid, you thought being an adult was so cool. You could drive a car, drink alcohol, go to bed whenever you want to, pretty much do whatever ya want? Then you actually became an adult and you realized its not all what it seems? Just me? Okay, I know … Continue reading May 25, 2021
"I’ve compiled a list of things that I learned in my youth that have help lead to my success not only as a person and member of society but also my strength as an independent adult.... All I know is, I owe a lot of gratitude to my mother for the life lessons she taught me. Yeah, she’s not perfect and it certainly hasn’t been the easiest relationship over the years. But she is worthy of my gratitude for these reasons and more, I’ll forever know how to tie my shoes, balance my check books and be a good citizen thanks to her diligence."